To be continued...

So it looks like I am going to be starting a new job soon. In Market Research. That will no doubt stoke up all the old existential fears. And leave me feeling rather less than satisfied again.

On the other hand, it will pay the bills. I plan to approach it like Sisphyius and take what I can from the experience. It will no doubt be temporary.

In entering into this necessary but compromising bargain I want to make one commitment to myself. Although I will no doubt have much less time on my hands, I want to keep this blog going. Even if it is just the occasional short ill thought out rant. This is my release valve and also a stimulus for my thinking. It represents the hope that there is a better way of doing things. It may one day get me there.

I have been asking myself whether I should make this blog public. In favour of the idea has been the (probably rather naive) hope that it could help me find the kind of job that I would be happy doing. Maybe one day that will still be the case.

What was holding me back was the perhaps more realistic notion that what I value in my personal life and what I should be perceived to value at work are not quite the same thing. And that I would be best off holding a piece of myself back. And that I don't want to have compromise what I write here.

Now that I'm about to start working again I'm glad that this is the path I've taken. Now whatever happens here, I will always have a place here to reflect on how I really feel...